Tuesday, September 13, 2011

IN MEMORY




A year ago today my oldest grandchild was shot & killed.
It has been a very hard year on me trying to understand this senseless killing.
To top it off I have been trying to put up a brave front for my daughter, David's brother, sister and 2 sons.

That was a big mistake and it finally got the best of me.

David's death left a big void in my life as he lived with me and I loved him so much, as did everyone else.

Now when I think of David a smile comes to my heart before tears to my eyes.

I realized I needed help and that is where I have been. I thank everyone who wrote & emailed me showing their concern. It helped me through this so much. A big shout out goes to Linda & Johnty.

Please remember David in your prayers.

27 comments:

wickedfaerie said...

Dear Sue,

I cannot begin to imagine the grief you have felt the past year. I have one child, a son, who has just had his first child, a daughter, and I could not begin to think what my life would be like without them. My heart goes out to you and I am glad you are letting others help you through this. It is hard always being the strong one, sometimes we just need someone to listen to us and give us a hug on a bad day.

Take Care,
Sue

Becca's Dirt said...

I have been so worried about you. I was so happy when I saw that you had posted. I'm so sorry about your grandson. That was a terrible loss and he lived with you too. I'm so sorry. Your daughter has emailed me and let me know that you were having a hard time. I sure hope that you feel like blogging again. I'd missed you so much. You inspired me to start my own cooking blog.

ButterYum said...

Oh goodness... I'm so very sorry to hear of this. I haven't been a follower for long, but my heart really goes out to you!

BumbleBeeLane said...

Sue~ So many people wondering.Good to hear your ok. Grief is hard take comfort in your wonderful family.Keeping you in prayer!~Amy

Sabrina @Falling Leaf Woodworkers and Primitives said...

I am so sorry you have had to go through this horrible ordeal. Losing a loved one is probably the hardest thing to go through. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family

TheCrankyCrow said...

Oh dear Sue....I didn't know - and I am so very sorry for your incredible loss. I will be praying for peace, comfort and healing for you and your family...I doubt that there will ever be understanding, but I will pray that the smile in your heart always comes before the tears in your eyes. You have been truly missed - I, too, was worried about you. I'm glad to see you back....Big Hugs ~ Robin

Linda ★ Parker's Paradise said...

I have missed you so much! I cannot imagine the pain you must have been consumed by. I do know grief has stages and you must pass through them all to reach acceptance. I am so very sorry that this had to happen to your grandson. Are you ready to let go and let GOD take care of you? He can help you find comfort in your memories, in your family and in your life. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers and I have hope that you will find comfort and healing in your family and friends.
"Do not cry because it is over,
but smile because it happened."
Dr. Seuss
He was a wise man, that Dr. Seuss. I know that you have many happy memories to give you those smiles. Warmest blessings, my friend,
★Linda★

The Plum Tree said...

I can only imagine your grief loosing someone so tragically. My heart goes out to you while you work through this, time may ease the pain, but it never erases the memory.

Beckyjean said...

Sue~

So glad you have sought out help. It is never easy to lose a loved one especially in such a terrible way. My heart goes out to you.

Hugs~Becky

Brenda said...

My prayers and thoughts continue to go out to you Sue...I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through! Just remember, there are many many people that love you and care about you! Big hugs to you!!

Brenda

jonette said...

So sorry for your loss. May your fond memories bring you peace and joy. I have missed you and am so glad to see you back.

Cyn said...

I am so sorry to hear what happened to your grandson. My heart goes out to you. I know it has got to be very hard on you and the entire family. Peace be with you.

Raspberry Lane Primitives said...

I am so sorry for your loss and hard time with it...I was just thinking of you the other day and am glad to hear that you are back.
Comfort, Blessings and Peace to you!
patti

Pokey said...

I'm remembering you in my prayers, Sue. A death like his is never understood...I'm sorry ~
hugs, pokey

Jonthy, Alice the uppity white cat's babysitter said...

Sue,
I was so happy to see your post even though I know you hurt so much. I'm glad you got help and you are right to let people know why. It's hard when you lose a loved one but it's even harder when it's a senseless act. You can't believe how much we've missed you. You are such a giving person Sue. Take comfort in all that you gave your grandson. That was a gift no one can ever take away from you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family every day.

Robin at The Primitive Hutch said...

Welcome back Sue!
So sorry to hear about your loss and the sadness you feel.
It's a long hard road to do it alone.
Thought & Prayers are being sent your way ~ may your heart mend quickly.
You have been missed.
Prim Blessings
Robin

*Linda Pinda* said...

Oh, Sue...
My heart aches for all of you. My prayers are with David, and all of you.

Love & Prayers,
~Linda

Denise's Kountry Patch said...

So sorry for you loss, what you and your family must have and is still going through. Many prayers for your healing and more smiles hopefully coming your way....hugs...Denise

frontporchprims said...

An empty spot in your hear hurts. I am sorry for your loss. A year is hardly time to heal. -Steph-

Dani said...

oh..I just knew something was wrong..missed your posts so much and have been praying....I know how much pain such a terrible tragedy can bring...lost loved ones the same way years ago...give yourself time and healing...comfort in knowing that the righteous Judge who sees all, will make this right one day....hugs and love sent your way...

Ronda said...

So sorry for your pain..prayers are here for you..
Blessings,
~Ronda

Becca's Dirt said...

Hi Sue. Just checking on you. You are in my thoughts and hope you are well.

Carol said...

We've all missed you very much. I feel and believe that David is still with you in spirit. Although he understands the grief you must go through, he also wants his favorite grandma to be healthy and well. Big hugs! ~Carol

Joycee said...

Oh my dear, how heartbreaking to lose a grandchild. I can't begin to understand what you've been through this past year and trying your best to be strong. No one could do this, just too hard. Sending up a prayer for David and a big hug for you.

Becca's Dirt said...

Hi Sue. just checking on you. I hope you are doing OK. Miss you. Hope to see you back soon. Take care. Love.

Linda said...

The best thing you can do to honor his memory is to take care of yourself. I'm sure that throughout your journey of healing you'll feel his love towards you as you go through this process now. Thank you for all you blog posts, and please know that our prayers are with your whole family. I don't know you, but you've been a big inspiration and right NOW, the most inspiring thing you are doing is taking care of YOU, and frankly, I admire you for it. :) LOTS OF LOVE

Linda ★ Parker's Paradise said...

I am still missing you, Sue.......